I want to sleep [BLAHHHH]

It's almost 3 in the morning. I'm tired. I want to sleep.

Also, I've discovered quite a few fun xfiles related things including Frank Spotnitz' blog, the caps files, and Mulder and Scully's suprisingly detailed wiki pages.

I also struck an inspiration gold mine that I'm not relvealing yet in case it falls through.

I will leave you on a happy note: I got a new review on what I consider my best fanfiction ever, and it was glowing:). The reviewer even subscribed to me! That's 5 reviews now, which, to me, is a respectable amount! Also now, I have to write good fics, so as not to dissapoint my two subscribers.

I'll get there eventually...

-Haley

Going home, fanfiction, and irrational fears that might just be rational [random thoughts]

It's our last night on vacation. Tomorrow we have a 14 hour drive back to the boring old Midwest. Then, on Monday, spring break is over and its back to my mundane existence which consists of swimming, swimming, school, shopping with my best friend Kristen, and swimming. And there was much rejoicing throughout the kingdom! If only... Lots of people start to miss their friends, and their routine, and their house by the time they've been away for a week, but I mustve been dropped on my homesick bone as a child, because I don't get it. The only thing I miss from home is Kristen, and I could probably go another week before I would go into depravation mode.

I don't get homesick. I don't miss my friends. Don't get me wrong, I love them, I can't wait to see them again, but I don't LONG FOR THEIR PRESENCE, or anything like that. I'm just not that type of gal I guess.

On a seperate note, I wrote the songfic I said I would write yesterday, and boy did it get the creative juices flowing! Unfortunately, I've been reading fanfiction for over an hour now, trying to get a unique idea for a piece, that would probably write itself at this point. I still got nothing. OF. FREAKING. COURSE. So yeah, I'm a little frustrated about that.

It wasn't all in vain though, I did read some really awesome fics, so kudos to you xfiles fandom! I also ventured into the relm of a fandom OTHER THAN XFILES... WHAT?!?! That's right, I, the xfiles extreme purist indulged in NCIS fanfiction! *gasp* it's nice to know that other fandom are just as dedicated as us! Although, possibly slightly less, considering xfiles has been off the air for... A while now, but whatever.

Something you should know about me: I want to believe in Xfiles 3. Just let me cultivate my ignorant dream, all right? That dream, and then one in which I meet Gillian Anderson. But for real, I had a dream about that once!

Next topic listed in the title, irrational fears, that might possibly be rational. What do I mean by this? Allow me first to apologize for the length of this post, and next to explain.

I will be heading back to practice, bright and early Monday morning. That means, back to my coaches, Thomas and Phil. I'm looking forward to seeing then again, after two weeks of their absense, but honestly, lately they make me kind of nervous.

Allow me to further elaborate. At the last meet of last season I ended on a not-so-good note. Actually, it was more of an I'm-an-emotional-wreck note and it was fairly embarressing. I just couldn't seem to hold back my emotions on the last day of that meet, and I DONT KNOW WHY. It was humiliating, and I'm left sitting here wondering how much I was able to lower their opinions of me.

Part of me says that they still think highly of me, and that they understand the emotional stress I was under for a month at that point, and that they still have plenty of respect for me. The other part is trying to jam some common sense into that part. As you can see, there lies the dilemma, and there lies the reason I am so nervous to seem them again.

Luckily, the new season is starting up, so I get somewhat of a clean slate. Somewhat.

Well, I could go on for ages more, but I think that's enough. I've got a touch of my famous mild insomnia, but I'm gonna try to get some rest.

-Haley

Songfics [adventures in xfiles fanfiction and shopping]

This writers block ends now. I mean, honestly, I just finished reading my fourth book this week, and I've barely written 5 pages?! I'm ending it as soon as I finish this blog post. I decided that I am going to force myself to sit down and write a songfic. It will probably turn out horribley, but the lyrics should help me along and provide guidance and inspiration. At least that's what I hope.

I've written quite a few songfics and I love writing them. Music is something that I really connect to and love, so it's fun to relate it to Mulder and Scully. That being said, I also believe it to be the lowest form of fanfiction, because the author relies very heavily on words that have already been written. They can still be quite lovely though! Not trying to bash them!


For those dying to know, a songfic is a form of fanfiction in which the author embeds lyrics from song into the fic. This can be done in varying degrees. The song can either carry the piece, or serve to enhance it. Mine usually carry them, hence, they don't usually get published.

Anyways, enough of that. Today my family and I went shopping at the outlet mall near our house. We spent a lot, so chances are that my mother won't be paying for my purchases for quite a while. It was especially fun because everything was on sale, so I got to purchase things that normally my parents would never dream of paying for.

We are talking a nice juicy couture necklace for 30 bucks. Uh, yeah.

I wasn't over eager to buy a bunch of things from expensive brands though. I was thinking of what other people would think if they saw me take my coach wallet out of my juicy shoulder bag. That kind of thing.

I know when I see someone with an extravagant amount of overpriced clothing I tend to make snap judgement about their character, and I know I'm not the only one guilty of it. Is it stereotyping, or just plain jealousy? Probably a little of both.

I love shopping, I don't know where that last part came from, I had just planned on talking about the stores we went to...

I should probably get going though... I need to choose a song. I've been listening to a lot of Mayday Parade, so I'll probably go with No Heroes Allowed.

I'll let you know if it goes well by posting it on fanfiction.net. See other posts for my penname. If you never see it on there, feel free to assume it sucked.

-Haley

Insomnia and sunburn [MILD insomnia, excuse me]

Hi friend. My chest is very itchy.

Allow me to explain.

Sunburn.

Yeah.

I still have writers block and I am very unhappy about it. Very. I just read a little MSR and it all felt a little cheesy and overdramatic to me. It's very easy to overwrite Mulder and Scully;I'm guilty of it as well. Overwriting doesn't make for a bad fic usually, I'm just in a weird mood. That's why I've been searching for the humor fics, but haven't found any tonight that stood out to me.

I just had an epiphany: any situation in life can be related to Spongebob and/or Xfiles. Just think about it.

Will anyone ever discover this blog? I refuse to pimp it, so probably not. I'm not sure how long it'll last, but assuming I never get tired of talking to no one, I suppose forever.

Not a comforting thought.

For real though, is mild insomnia a thing??

-Haley

Thinking and writers block [adventures in xfiles fanfiction]

Why hello there. I've been up for a couple hours now reading Xfiles fanfiction on fanfiction.net. I have been known to read smut once in a while, but I prefer the clean stuff. I usually only read MSR, but once in a while I travel off the beaten path into DRR territory. I also write fanfiction. I'm not far enough into the series to write DRR, I've only just met Doggett, but I might try someday.

During this vacation I kinda imagined myself really pumping out the fanfiction, but alas, writers block hit and it seems that it is here to stay. It's a shame too because the fic I was writing was coming along nicely. It was a version of the Notebook with Mulder and Scully and gender roles switched. I think I might quit it, just because it seems to be going no where. I will write a couple pages of story and then just mark it out because of how forced it sounds and how bad it is.

On the other hand, I'm going throught the rewriting/editing phase with a piece that I wrote a while ago. It's a little cheesy and over dramatic in my opinion, but I worked hard on it and I want it to be published. It's full of Mulder angst:). If you're interested in my work, find me on fanfiction.net, my penname is Gillianandersonwannabe. How fitting.

On a completely unrelated note, my friend and I did a project on the book called The Book Thief by Markus Zusak. It's on YouTube, so you should check it out. Her username is thetarrbabyx.

On a slightly more related note, Gillian Anderson has had lesbian affairs!! WHAT?! That's amazing, because now instead of being one in a million, my chances with her are one in 999,999.99! And there was much rejoicing throughout the kindom! I could go on forever about Gillian, but I think I'll stop now ans save that for a later post...

-Haley

I have a headache [random thoughts]

I've had a headache all day now, but I just took some ibuprofen, so hopefully it'll go away soon. I'm on spring break right now and my family rented a house on the beach, and it's been really nice so far, all things (including headaches and sunburns) considered. Don't worry though, I'm not sitting here blogging while I should be spending time with my family, they are all in bed. I can't sleep.

Sometimes I think I might be a mild insomniac if there is such a thing. So tired, and yet I can't sleep. Insomnia reminds me of two of my favorite people! Fox Mulder and Adam Young! Well, Mulder is a fictional character, but still.

Today I saw Hunger Games. It was good. Slightly hated the camera work though. Made my headache worse. Also, I had definite expectations for the musical score and they were not met. It was still pretty good though. After all, my musical bar is usually set pretty high, *ahem* Mark Snow.

I'm very tired. I think I'll try to sleep now. Good night.

-Haley

So, uh... Hi... [an introduction]

So, my name is Haley and this is my blog. I wanted a place where I could just let my thoughts out, so I decided this would be the place. I absolutely did not want to be limited by a theme, so that's why there's no theme. I will try to make my posts regular, but I won't lie, sometimes I'll post 4-5 times a day, and sometimes not for a month. If you don't like it, don't follow me.

Here are some things you will probably hear about on my blog: the X-Files, Gillian Anderson, music, nerdfighteria, and YouTube among other things... I will warn you in advance, I am VERY obsessive. VERY. It's a little scary, and this is the only place I'm going to apologize for it. So there you go. I'm not like a stalker, but, come on. Gillian Anderson. How could you not love her?!

So read on if you dare. If you like what you read, follow me. Can't get enough of me via blog? My instagram is piratessayargh and I write fanfiction (only x-files so far) on fanfiction.net. My username is Gillianandersonwannabe.

Not a fan? No need to flame, just move along.

-Haley